Clawing My Heart Out

To watch the ink stain the white,
like your smile stains my heart
Your words, how you look
tattooed to my mind
And you don't see,
you don't know;
I'm going blind
I'm going blind!

Your my demon,
my angel -
the only one with power over me;
the only one able to make me bleed
You won't let me stay angry,
What if I want to stay angry?

I want to cut out my heart,
give it to you
Watch the butterflies escape
I'm a freak,
I'm a monster,
You'd never approve
You'd never approve of the love I give to you

Stumble around,
darkness behold
Nobody cares
if you laugh when I fall
Will you laugh if I fall?

I don't like
the feelings you're giving to me
I want to tear myself
from the inside out
I want to cry,
I want to scream
AND I WILL SCREAM!

I want to cut out my heart,
give it to you
Watch the butterflies escape
I'm a freak,
I'm a monster,
You'd never approve
You'd never approve of the love I give to you

Emotions clawing at my heart,
eating me out,
I'm bleeding out!
I never learned
how to deal with this!
Will you help me deal?
Will you return how I feel?

I want to cut out my heart,
give it to you
Watch the butterflies emerge
I'm a freak,
I'm a monster
You'll never approve!
You'll never approve of the love I gave to you

Will you...?

Hate me! Destroy me!
None of it matters,
you'll never love me!
I'm a freak,
I'm a monster
You'll never approve
You'll never approve!
...You'll never approve